It’s officially been a year in this strange reality. For one whole year, we’ve been pivoting, spiraling, extending uncertainty, grieving, coping, trying to get grounded while simultaneously craving spontaneity.
What do we do with such anniversaries? We know how to celebrate the anniversaries of birth, weddings, back to school, or joining a company. But what happens to our wedding date after we’ve divorced or the birthday of someone we’ve lost? What are we meant to do with this first anniversary of pandemic lockdown, and as we pass 500,000 Covid deaths here in America—as many as were killed in World War II, the Korean War, and the Vietnam War combined?
Hard anniversaries are helped by looking at the routines which have helped us create structure and predictability and the rituals that have helped us process what the occasion signifies. Routines are concrete repetitive actions that help us develop skills while creating continuity and order. Rituals are routines elevated by creativity, driven by intention, and imbued with meaning. Rituals ease us through transitions—birth, first day of school, graduation, marriage, death—and create a code for handling them. If setting the table every night is a routine, pulling out the special china for the anniversary of grandma’s death, making her favorite recipe from the old country, and looking at pictures of her is a ritual that helps us remember her and process how much time has passed since we could hold her.
Rituals and routines are both about delineating between space and time and creating a grounding rhythm, a predictable structure with a reassuring, calming, and stabilizing effect. They can also overlap. Reading every night to our children is a routine that helps them develop literacy skills; but symbolically, it’s a ritual of creating special time between parent and child. When you bring mindfulness into your routines, they can become rituals.
In the last year, I have depended on daily routines and rituals to help me function through my day like never before. Every morning, I cut a juicy pink grapefruit in half to eat. I make a cup of coffee just how I like it. I cut up fresh strawberries, mango, grapes for one plate and carrots and cucumbers with sea salt and olive oil for another. After a year of this, I find certainty knowing that, by the end of the day, my husband and I will finish it all, snacking away in our little kitchen cafeteria where we work, call friends, and catch up with our sons on video calls. These are some routines that have sustained and nourished me for one whole year now.
But on this hard anniversary, it is my rituals, both old and new, for which I find myself most grateful. I’ve spent the last year trying to figure out what information, advice, and exercises can be most helpful to the readers of this newsletter, attendees of our workshops, our community, and so on. So much of that information has come directly from daily scheduled conversations with family, friends, colleagues, and my team—an old ritual recast for the Zoom era. For a year, the old ritual of Friday night shabbat—that ancient weekly transition between work and rest where we sit around the table, light candles, drink wine, and sing and talk for hours knowing we can sleep in—has created continuity from pre-pandemic life to now. For a year, my new rituals—a Zoom yoga group with friends where we catch up after savasana; the weekly big batch of hearty soup I make and deliver to friends’ doorsteps which reminds me of my good girl Belgian roots and the warmth of sharing food even when we’re apart—have helped imbue my routines of physical exercise and cooking with new meaning.
As we process this anniversary together, taking stock of our deep losses and perhaps surprising gains, it’s worth looking back at the rituals and routines which have helped us day after day, month after month—and the ones that will continue to create continuity, structure, and joy as we move ahead.
Ask yourself, then ask your loved ones.
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